The only one that can slow me down is me.
Spit it out
This bad taste has been sitting in my mouth for a while, and now it’s time to spit. Spit the bad taste to the ground behind me where it belongs. I think it’s time to start playing shows again. Got a new inspiration. Got a new love. New hate. New game. New sins. New past. New strengths. New weaknesses. New pains. New age. New ears. New mind. New sport. New thoughts. Clean hands. It’s go time. “The throne’s for the taking. It’s time to take it.” I’m feeling really, really motivated.
It’s my birthday BYAH.
I’m in my 20’s now peeps. Dis be some crazy stuff. Gonna start using this again I think
Whole
I reached a satisfaction tonight. I finally accepted my life and understand my place a little more. I think I can say that I’m honestly blessed and I feel that I am in the pendulum between happy and sad. I hope I can stay here because it feels so right, to feel this way that is. Breathing easy and free. Seeing someone and what goes on in their life. How easily someone could vanish but life could still go on. It’s interesting. I’m satisfied. globbideegoop I’m satisfied
You know I don’t think that I’m alone here. I know that I’m alone here.
I don’t want to be alone here, so I’m trying to do what I love so that what I love continues to keep me from feeling so empty in my chest. Those pains still happen at least once a week and remind me I’m still breathing. I’m still alone.
I’ve been staying way too low away from everything for a while. Sorting thoughts is tough, but giving up things and people isn’t always bad. I’m the most content I’ve been in a long time, but I really do wish I was more than content. The days are starting to run together again, and something needs to throw on the breaks so that I can take a look around. I need something to get me out of this funk.
Things seem to be slowing turning in my direction!
Today I tried out on guitar and was accepted into the program immediately!
I feel like I got rid of all of the negativity in my life and am keeping the past tucked away where it should be. Living free and single is nice for the time being, because now I can focus on me for a little bit instead of worrying about trying to keep someone else happy. I need to be more of an ass hole sometimes is what I’ve decided. If I’m always looking out for everyone else, maybe I’m being left behind like with my entire past. I need to strive to be in the lead for once and boast a little bit about it. I’m working on a guitar major, a marketing/business minor, a personal training certificate, I’m a librarian, I go to school pretty much free, I have a family that cares about me, I have a few friends that are always there for me and I’m always there for, I’ve played guitar for 9 years, and I can generally strike up a conversation with anyone if I really want to talk. I’m living a good life. I’m living to have a great future. No one’s gonna slow me down
